Third Birthday

Happy Birthday sweet girl! 

Poem sent by my sweet friend Erika!  It seems fitting for the day.

i carry your heart with me

by E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)

i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)



The last few years, I have chosen a word for the year.  The first year it was hope.  I needed hope that we would get through the year after Willow’s death.  Last year, the word was faith.  I needed to have faith that we would get to bring our rainbow home.  This year, I am choosing grateful.  I want to purposefully choose to be grateful each day.  I want to enjoy the moments at home with the boys.  I want to be grateful, that I get to watch Ian grow and learn each day.  I need to remind myself how grateful I am for my family that supports us and my friends that I can lean on.  2012 was an amazing year and I feel so blessed.   I look forward to what 2013 has in store for us. 


Ian NYE 2013



Second Angel Anniversary



Two years ago we met you and said goodbye.  Today is still hard, as have the days leading up to your birthday.  Even with your little brother keeping me busy, I still miss you.  In him I see you. I wish today that I had both of you here to love on.  Happy birthday, Willow Ann!